Running on Empty

Okay. Sticking to the positive. Trying very hard not to go crazy. Aye, yai, yai. Ok. So the trip to Florida wasn't all hunkey dorey as I'd hoped it would be but there were some positives thrown in. Maura came back over to the east coast once again, for a visit. So good to see her as always. Sometimes it helps to have a good friend put things in perspective for you. Maybe things didn't happen the way I planned this time but my time will come.

So many laughs that night. Amazing :)

For the first time in five months I was able to swim in the ocean and it was just extraordinary. "Salt water cures everything; sweat, tears or the ocean." So true. The water was 86 degrees and I had my own little tide pool to float in. Couldn't ask for anything better.

By the time we got home to MA on Wednesday the power had come back on. We missed the entire hurricane. No complaints here. Thursday ended up being a beautiful day here with a little hint of fall in the air. It was a new day and I told myself that things needed to change. The next two months are inevitable, living with the ex-fix on my right leg. But I have two choices, I can sulk and mope for those two months or I can make the absolute best out of a shitty situation. Obviously I am opting to make the best of it. It turned out to be a spectacular day complete with seeing one of my favorite bands, The Weepies, do an acoustic performance in Boston.

Today was a completely different story. Three o'clock this morning I woke up to the most excruciating pain in my foot. So much so that it brought me to tears. By 6:00AM I couldn't take it anymore and hobbled downstairs. For the first time in four months I gave in and took a pain pill. What I got was a little bit of sleep, a lot of drowsiness and very little pain relief. Literally, I feel like I am running on empty. Every time things begin to look up for me something happens and I plummet downward. Trust me, I am trying so hard to keep my head up and push on.

At this point, I can honestly say that this is the most difficult situation I have ever found myself in.

Love.
Hopingforthebest.